In Survival Mode
Panic. And yet oddly calm. My mind is forcing me to focus on one day at a time.
This month was already full of activity. Yesterday, I had ten ladies over at the house for our monthly homeschooling meeting. I am not a hospitality queen by any measure so this requires more effort on my part than for the natural Martha Stewarts out there. This event by itself would have triple astricks on the calendar for November, and would have enough pull to be my main focus (even over planning for Thanksgiving).
November has also been my month to lead my women's weekly Bible study discussion. Something that again, usually requires more prep on my end than for the natural teachers and leaders in this world. Christ has been calling me into leadership over the last few years, first steering me clearly into leadership, and now actual leading responsibilities. It was not a position I ever volunteered for, however I have felt his hand on my shoulder the entire time, and finding it impossible to turn against His firm grasp, I have been obedient to His calling.
Thankfully, after some rather bold prayer requests on my part (I'll do this, but...) He has gotten rid of the butterflies that used to consume me, and helped me overcome my feelings of inexperience and youth (I am the youngest person in the entire group). But I am still working letting Christ lead through me. This month I have been able to whittle my 6+ hours of prep down to 2-3 hours, so I suppose that is a promising move in the right direction.
In addition to the above it seems like I have numerous projects that are on my plate at this time: the impending birth of our daughter..the holiday shopping...homeschooling. Not to mention the growing pressure and and now pain in my pelvis from baby Faith, that makes daily chores feel like a double the work.
To cap it off, last week I was informed by my father that everyone was coming down to MY house for Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving this year was originally just going to be my brother and sister-in-law. All of a sudden it turned into a full week of managing room and board for 7 more people!!! Oh..and by the way...let's do an early Christmas gift exchange. Honestly, the visit is a grand blessing as it also includes the presence of not only my immediate family, but also my 80 year old grandfather who will be flying in from Arizona. I've always wanted to have him at our house, and it will be my honor, and a visit I will treasure always. Plus, my lovely sister-in-law will be helping greatly with the room and board aspect of it all. But I must still admit that the feeling of "Oh, Lord please help me..." floods over me daily.
Tonight I lead the last portion of my part of the Bible Study. The mother's homeschooling night is over. The ground floor of the house is immaculate after two days of intense cleaning...so I am hoping to breathe deeply over the next week and focus on the cooking, the upstairs disaster, the basement, the advertising assignments I have due before the month's end, the doctor's appointments, the early gift shopping, the grocery shopping...PANIC.
One day at a time...breathe...One day at a time...
This month was already full of activity. Yesterday, I had ten ladies over at the house for our monthly homeschooling meeting. I am not a hospitality queen by any measure so this requires more effort on my part than for the natural Martha Stewarts out there. This event by itself would have triple astricks on the calendar for November, and would have enough pull to be my main focus (even over planning for Thanksgiving).
November has also been my month to lead my women's weekly Bible study discussion. Something that again, usually requires more prep on my end than for the natural teachers and leaders in this world. Christ has been calling me into leadership over the last few years, first steering me clearly into leadership, and now actual leading responsibilities. It was not a position I ever volunteered for, however I have felt his hand on my shoulder the entire time, and finding it impossible to turn against His firm grasp, I have been obedient to His calling.
Thankfully, after some rather bold prayer requests on my part (I'll do this, but...) He has gotten rid of the butterflies that used to consume me, and helped me overcome my feelings of inexperience and youth (I am the youngest person in the entire group). But I am still working letting Christ lead through me. This month I have been able to whittle my 6+ hours of prep down to 2-3 hours, so I suppose that is a promising move in the right direction.
In addition to the above it seems like I have numerous projects that are on my plate at this time: the impending birth of our daughter..the holiday shopping...homeschooling. Not to mention the growing pressure and and now pain in my pelvis from baby Faith, that makes daily chores feel like a double the work.
To cap it off, last week I was informed by my father that everyone was coming down to MY house for Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving this year was originally just going to be my brother and sister-in-law. All of a sudden it turned into a full week of managing room and board for 7 more people!!! Oh..and by the way...let's do an early Christmas gift exchange. Honestly, the visit is a grand blessing as it also includes the presence of not only my immediate family, but also my 80 year old grandfather who will be flying in from Arizona. I've always wanted to have him at our house, and it will be my honor, and a visit I will treasure always. Plus, my lovely sister-in-law will be helping greatly with the room and board aspect of it all. But I must still admit that the feeling of "Oh, Lord please help me..." floods over me daily.
Tonight I lead the last portion of my part of the Bible Study. The mother's homeschooling night is over. The ground floor of the house is immaculate after two days of intense cleaning...so I am hoping to breathe deeply over the next week and focus on the cooking, the upstairs disaster, the basement, the advertising assignments I have due before the month's end, the doctor's appointments, the early gift shopping, the grocery shopping...PANIC.
One day at a time...breathe...One day at a time...
Mama Knucker Hatch @ 12:45 PM
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